Im the farthest from God then I have ever been, I’ve been going to church sense birth, I’ve teached and still do teach sunday school. Im also the most content I’ve ever been, I’m trying to find God again to really feel complet but it’s hard. I am also straight but do find some more masculine females very sexually attractive, and my church isnt anti gay  just anti acting gay, so no difference really, and seeing as i can relate i feel uncomfortable. most of my strong christian friends are douchbags and think there amazing and perfict, and are allowed to judge so this leads me to stray. I feel that the inly reason ive lost God is because of the people and the leaders not him, which is a shame.

OH my lord I am on this diet with my friend and it is killing me, I do not want to do this but am an amazing friend so im doing with her… Honestly yeah i love the idea of weight loss for me but not like this! and because of this i think imma take a run tomorrow and loos weight the right way, maybe extra excursise with this diet will duble my loss! 

PS- I go to the gym three times a week, im extremely active, i teach a gym muscle cardio class twice a week. I’m just a sturdy person and like every girl i would rather be thinner :(